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In this mesmerizing collection, Megan Fernandes travels the globe, falls in and out of love, pays homage to dead poets and contemplates the stars.

“I Do Everything I’m Told” by Megan Fernandes.

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Megan Fernandes’ new book, “I Do Everything I’m Told,” is a collection of unruly, irreverent love poems addressing the speaker’s younger self, her former lovers and the child she aborted. Divided into four sections, it includes a sequence of sonnets that begins in Shanghai and touches down in cities across the globe.

In Paris, she recalls a lover who told her, “I used to beat women,” and her belated realization “that people who read Marx can also beat women.” Certain refrains recur: “Bad weather is a gift.” “Nobody tells you how to raise a dark child.” Clearly, the speaker is dark herself. She craves absolutes. She speaks in adages. But she also understands they don’t exist: “The first person we love is just that: first.”

During the pandemic lockdown, she bikes through Times Square in Manhattan, where a guy blasting rap music works out with a police barrier on the sidewalk. “What flex,” she thinks. “He makes it all look so good.” So does she.

Fernandes, an English professor and writer-in-residence at Lafayette College in Pennsylvania, has an unforgettable voice, filled with intense longing for both the sacred and profane. Her poems pay tribute to Rilke, Rimbaud, Brodsky and Ginsberg but also to pop culture figures like Frank Ocean, the Fugees, Lil Wayne and the Cars.

Megan Fernandes is the author of “I Do Everything I’m Told.”

Photo: Elisa Giardina Papa

Nature enthralls her in “Catskills”: “Tonight, I bow to a choir of trees, a majestic grove of evergreens who feed nightly on stars.” But it frightens her in “Beggars and Choosers,” where she pictures COVID-infected lungs in the pandemic: “glass opacity, x-rays of snow.”

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I Do Everything I’m Told
By Megan Fernandes
(Tin House; 104 pages; $16.95)

Megan Fernandes at Green Apple Books on the Park:Free. Sept. 26; time not yet announced. 1231 Ninth Ave., S.F.www.greenapplebooks.com

In “Orlando,” one of the most moving poems in the book, the speaker daydreams about the abortion she had 14 years ago and an alternate life in which the child was born. “I have no regrets, but I wonder if he’s waiting in the sky somewhere or doing blow in another dimension where he’s a rocker and very much flesh.”

She presents her rationale for the abortion to this nonexistent child, who personifies Robert Frost’s “road not taken”: “I don’t believe in kin by blood, but I believe poems can give form to the formless, that one can resurrect roads not taken in a line and give it a name.”

What name? How about Orlando, the title of this poem and a novel by Virginia Woolf, who famously spoke of the need for a woman to have “a room of one’s own” to become an artist. Fernandes imagines this impertinent teenager waving her off but maybe reading “Orlando” in college someday and thinking “about his young mother who wanted to be a writer and what she might have had to give up in order to raise him at 23.”

Readers will be grateful that nothing stopped her from realizing her dream.

  • Ann Levin